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It all made sense
once you felt my pounding heart
It fell into place
and a lightbulb appeared
where a cuckoo once flew
there was a reason there
once you felt my screaming heart.
All that common sense defense was cruelty
once you felt my cornered heart
slamming against these ribs
I heard a rumor once
that foundation psychology never goes away
mine's a curse
a frightened spirit
beset by smirking demons
with shallow intentions
desperate to escape
fully prepared to watch the rest of me drop
if just to leave this moment
without withering in it
and then you felt my tortured heart.
When you stopped yelling back
and came to me
reached out and held me there
then with a singular look
of honest astonishment
exclaimed
"Oh my God! Your heart! It's beating so fast."
you can't possibly know
what it meant
to have someone else
meet my childhood
face to face
the way I have to
every day.
You were the first to ever notice that I'm being eaten alive on the inside by a primal, fight or flight response. You were also the first one to respond, by adapting to help me not deal with it as much. I'm so grateful. Thank you. I never knew how to tell anyone what was going on, except to tell them to shut up and leave me alone.
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