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and what is this new thing? what is this? we are playing a game... i am dodging you, and you are dodging me... and this is just not helping my pathetic situation. for a little while there, i had some confidence. for such a little while. and now i feel like the spawn of satan... and you... you toy with me. do you enjoy this? well, i wont fall, i will NOT give in to you. you dont know me. and you dont really want to. and, unlike every time before, i will NOT offer myself up this time. if you want to know, you can ask. i reach out to you sometimes, just a little bit, just to see if i will capture something warm... and there is nothing.
oh god, i am SO NOT GOING THROUGH THIS AGAIN. stay away from me. i didnt invite you in. i didnt say you were welcome here. ill have you know i am PERFECTLY HAPPY in my solace. really, i am. sure, it can get lonely... but if i quarantine myself, i wont hurt anyone. ahhh, i see how you work. you know i cant hurt you. but you know you can hurt me. so im going to be very cautious with this intruder. and i shall tiptoe around the details.
ohhhh, no you dont. not this time. i will not swallow my pride this time. you will not see me being weak. no way, man.
im just.. im too scared to go through it all over again.
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