blather
30_second_misery
not myself and it all comes down to this
the awkward hello and screaming silence
i can't help but to choke
even if its one of those fake chokes
just
to leave

and be capable of a conversation maybe next time or never

i wanted to fall in love again
or maybe it was just a romantic idea

so i smiled and scribbled out the reasons why i hate you in my head-
the grand finale turn from your familiar scent and familiar eyes
of our 30 second misery

everything was over
even though it had never really begun
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