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| Risen |
The reason this year has been so hard, is that I realise it's been ten years since then. Ten whole years since 131105. That was my memorable date for YEARS. My pin code. My password reset. It was the only bloody date it could remember in the years when they had me pumped so full of tranquilizers I barely knew which way was up. It was the date when we were supposed to be together. When she'd be free to make her own choices. Choose me over society and her parents and whatever. I don't know. Teenagers have such wild romantic notions. Suffice it to say, when the time came, I wasn't ready to be the right person, and she wasn't there anyway. It wasn't the first time. Blather is full of reminders of it. From as recently as a few months ago, all the way to 11 years ago. And there are dozens of other examples. Times she promised... (to be continued.) |
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